It's what I feel right now, tomorrow I'll go back to normal.

How can someone feel alone, yet they are surrounded by the world and everything in it?
How can someone touch me and yet I can not feel it?
Why do I feel empty for short periods of time?
Why do I care what you think?

I'm numb and jaded, I cry at the stupidest commercials and laugh with my friends about it later.
I'm so happy in love with the greatest guy, yet I yearn for a first kiss again like in the movies.

I love my daughter, she is my identity, I would die for her
and yet I want my freedom back, my past, (without the bullshit), I'm numb.

How can someone put on a happy face when they feel like I do?
I should get a freaken Emmy for my acting abilities.

I am so blessed with all great things in my life, my family, my home, my ability to sing in which I don't use and get accused of wasting my talent all the time for, and yet, I still can feel like this, I'm numb.

All I can think about is I don't want my daughter to grow up like me, she's so perfect, I love her!

I get spurts of energy , I want to do everything, create a business, loose major amounts of weight and actually feel as beautiful as everyone says I would be (If I only lost weight of course), go out, do something—but I can't because, I'm numb, jaded, why do I feel like this? Why do I care what you think?

I'm numb,
but tomorrow I'll be better!